I`m so dissapointed...
Thu, Nov 20, 2008 • 10:47 AM CST - ByEclypse
I`ve got a job that doesn`t fit my needs... Why did I had to go there to work ?
My 2 year girlfriend lied to me a hell of a time... [2 years] that she loved me... How stupid of me to believe her... at least I know now...
I can`t concentrate right now on music, because of my job...
I`ve got a collegue that wants to start a band with me and he wants to sing exactly the opposite songs that I`m dreaming of... He`s a bad singer too... Why did I get into this ???
My girlfriend likes me much, I bet, but she does stuff that makes me very angry...Sometimes I even wonder, was she the right choice ?
Since I got my drivers licence I`ve quitted drinking so much and now I can`t even enjoy a bottle of bear with all my heart... because it fills me up quite quickly and I get dizzy easily now.
I`ve dreamed my ex-girlfriend and even thoug I love/hate her, I caressed her in my dream... Why ???
It seems that the world is going down each day closer to extinction... It makes me really sad seing the people get killed by themselves... because of the greediness.
I`m a born dreamer and of course that means that I love art. I can say that I`m blessed with it, music, painting, sculpting, acting, dancing and so on. But I`m so dissapointed that I can`t do them all ... I always have to choose one or two...
I have a strong will to live. I`m happy that I have it. Sometimes it`s enough for me... but sometimes I wonder how it would`ve been without me.
I sometimes sit and think of my parents. I love them both, they`ve done so much for me and my only way of repaying them is to become a man stable on his feet. But... I don`t know why I imagine the day in wich they will pass away... I wouldn`t know what to do. I`d cry, I`d go nuts for sure !...
I`m dissapointed, that`s for sure... and my list could go on forever...
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Comments
Thu, Nov 20, 2008 @
11:36 AM CST
These are exactly the times to express yourself. You've got the makings of several good poems and/or songs there. Explore your depths. Keep trying to express your inner voice. Once you express it you begin to understand it. Don't try to just think happy thoughts, but don't wallow in the gloom either, just explore it, express it, try to understand it and it will cure itself.
You've gotten good response to the projects you've created in here. People identify with your art. Feel the love brother.
Thu, Nov 20, 2008 @
12:12 PM CST
Amen to that! Titi, the best stuff I have ever written, I have done when I have been very depressed. Music works like therapy for me, the more down I feel, the better music I make. Follow Lonnie's advice if you can, I promise it will be a good thing.
Rock On
B
Thu, Nov 20, 2008 @
01:08 PM CST
All I can add to my friends above Titi is that you are not alone with all the feelings you express. I recognize much off what you express and I'm sure others do too. Add some music if you can and we can see where we go together.
Thu, Nov 20, 2008 @
05:30 PM CST
Lonnie is right, Titi. You're a true talent. Don't let the everyday get you down. Instead, channel it into your art. You've got some amazing skills.
Thu, Nov 20, 2008 @
06:12 PM CST
I agree with the great guys above...I have those days, weeks, months, that I just sort of sit and wonder what I am doing and about all the things you mentioned and more. Thats the great thing about being a musician, you can take those thoughts and feelings and pour them into a song or songs and it somehow makes you feel a little bit better getting them out into the world.
So Hang in there Titi and remember, your not alone in feeling the way you do.
T
Fri, Nov 21, 2008 @
03:38 AM CST
Guys, thanx for the nice words. I will try to empty my dissapointment into a song, i`m onto right now :) Thanx again for everything !!
Fri, Nov 21, 2008 @
02:12 PM CST
Also, as artists we feel things on a deeper level than most others. It used to drive me crazy, but now I realize that I couldn't write music (especially lyrics) without being like this.
Take care Titi, you have friends here!
Sat, Nov 22, 2008 @
05:49 AM CST
I`ve found a family here, not only friends :) I see Kompoz as a big family !
Fri, Dec 5, 2008 @
04:04 PM CST
I agree that I couldn't have written many of the songs I've written if it weren't for the things that have happened to me. Also I find it hard to believe myself when I believed in certain people that turned out to be different than what I expected.
Yeah I find many online families. It's nice to have others out there to relate to. :)
